February 23, 2011

For The Record.

For the record, I’m busy.

For the record, these 2 weeks was very hectic for me to even bother other things. I barely eat carbohydrate because either I was too occupied with other things or just forgot. But I did consume a lot and a lot of caffeine. It keeps my body and brain works.

For the record, I already experienced how messed up it was to be awake 30 hours straight without sleep. Not even 1 minute nap.

For the record, I will never like any annoying-big mouth-bossy midwife in the world. No offense if you are one of them.

For the record, I met those overreact-rude-don’t know rule husbands of patients.

For the record, I finished my 4 assignments in just first 3 weeks. Quite lega to make my mind of those small-small things.

For the record, I cried in the public for the first time in my entire mature- strong-tough-adult life. Shit. It was humiliating.

For the record, the word “Your brain didn’t link with your mouth”, “Bloody hell”, “Did your mother left you when you was six?”, “You all are the poorest group for the whole batch”, “Nonsense” are the words that I already used to for these 2 weeks.

For the record, I don’t need any ‘comforting’ advices like “Ala. Chill beb. Ak pun pnh kena mcm kau. Tak nangis pun. Bukan ko sorg je”. Well, YOU, GO TO HELL with that. It’s not comforting but annoying. I’m not interested to know even to ask. This is about me, myself and I. Try to be in my shoes and see either it fits or not.

For the record, I just see one of the babies died due to premature birth. I used to go to the baby’s room in the ward at the very end of the day just to look and touch them. Because it made the whole crap things that happened to me on that day melted and faded away. And today, I didn’t go to that room because that makes my heart ache and bleed out.

And for the record, I hate my new toothbrush! It made my gum bled a lot. Grrrrrr!


farah said...

weeeeh ! take the toothbrush part out. seriously. its ruining the 'good' mood ! hahaha

syudud. no one can do this posting better than you. different people experience different things. you'll be fine. you always.. was and were and will be fine. gambatte ney Onney chan ^^

i need booster for my medicine posting. i've been too laid back. and now its nearing the end oledi. and i still got lots of topic to read ! aigooo

Nurul Syuhada Sulaiman said...

hahahaha. ye ke? mmg sj letak. hahaha.

seriously penat. n lg penat sbb penuh prasaan takut kene marah and mmg asyik kene marah. huhu. wad merah mmg mcm tu kot.

ok. bce jgn tak bce. habiskan topic dlm study guide tu. sempat lg kl nk abiskan. at least cover yg should know tu. sure boleh nye. gambate!!

p/s: thanks for the advice. that was the comforting advice that i need. tq dear. <3


it's ok,syud..pengalaman yg pahit adalah pengalaman yg sgt berharga..yup,agree with farah..setiap org akan melalui pengalaman yg berbeza..even dia org yg rapat dgn kte..hope this is one of the advice that u need..hehe..chaiyok2x..

Achiq said...

dats individual differences...u noe ur strength then u go...crying does'nt mean u r weak ryte?? different people wit different way to express the feelings...for me, i like person who has tendency to cry while stress/hurt bcoz dat bad feel is flowing away...keep it up gurl...past, heren now ualways doing ur best job..believe it...